TRIGGER WARNING: This story contains references to suicide.
When I was a baby, I used to stare outside my cot and giggle and coo at, well, nothing. My poor mum would come into the room and pick me up, all while I continued to look straight through her, evidently reacting to someone who wasn’t there.
I have always been very emotional. Those around me have often said I am “too sensitive” or “difficult” or “attention-seeking”. All of which is incredibly hurtful and upsetting because even though I am emotionally driven, I’ve always had a maturity well beyond my years. I have an uncanny ability to interact, resonate and understand people of all ages, no matter their stage in life. In fact, strangers will come up to me on the street and tell me their life story, people will divulge family secrets within an hour of meeting them and others will just look at my face and tell me everything without being asked.
Before I was 18, I experienced significant losses from death. My Grandma Shirley (I was just a baby), my Abuelo (grandpa) Luis, and countless school teachers, students and family friends — more than most people would even know in their lifetime.
Each passing affected me differently. Sometimes the person would come to me in my dreams — although, at the time, I didn’t understand it. Some would fill me with immense grief (even if I knew them for a day, a week, a year) and others would give me physical pain — almost like an imprint from the agony that their family was going through. But mostly, I just felt it, deeply.
I grew up questioning everything, constantly learning lessons with life-changing situations, always learning the hard way. I constantly dealt with difficult people and often difficult relationships, all who challenged me in every way possible. My life was forever evolving, changing and oftentimes laborious, but still, I kept going.
After what felt like years of battle, someone told me I was an “empath”. I couldn’t even tell you who that person was but what I do know is from that day on, I realised there was a reason why I had never felt like I fit in.
An empath is someone who is highly sensitive and has a keen ability to sense what people around them are thinking and feeling. According to Psychalive, “psychologists use the term empath to describe a person that experiences a great deal of empathy, often to the point of taking on the pain of others at their own expense.” Aha!
Prior to learning this, I never felt like I had a “normal” place in this world. I felt like a gypsy who moved from suburb to suburb, from state to state, from job to job, making friends (and sometimes losing them) and often feeling like I didn’t know who I was who I was meant to be. I was misunderstood and lonely, and often just felt really, really sad.
At one of the lowest points in my life, my mum had to leave work to meet me at Royal North Shore Hospital in Sydney. I had been walking across the Harbour Bridge and wondered what it might feel like to jump. Sitting with mum in a room and two doctors, I remember feeling so much pain. We were both crying. Me uncontrollably. Then all of a sudden, I felt a space move behind the sofa where we were sitting. The sofa was up against the wall, but I remember turning around and seeing my Abuelo and Abuela (grandma), both who had passed away, standing behind me, each with a hand on my shoulder.
For years I had been seeing psychics and after this particular day, I went and saw another one. Here, they explained to me what I had seen. It was indeed my grandparents. I had “seen” them and they were there to protect and watch over me.
I’d had many psychics over the years tell me I was a psychic too, but it wasn’t until 2015 that I knew I had to do something about it. I remember folding clothes one day and didn’t have any technology on. The TV was off, as was the radio. My phone was on the bed and my laptop was shut. Out of no where I “saw” in my mind a scene of Khloe Kardashian dropping to the ground and crying hysterically.
Wondering what the hell just happened, I opened my phone. Staring back at me was breaking news from the last five minutes. Lamar Odom (Kardashian’s ex-husband) was in a coma. The universe (or whatever you believe in) was slapping me in the face telling me to wake the f**k up. I could “see”.
After this, I joined a Facebook group where I met a woman named Leah who showed me what it meant to be a psychic medium. She taught me how to listen for messages, read photographs, speak to those who have passed away, read energies and ultimately to help and heal others. Oh and I found out why I am so emotional (apart from being an empath). Did you know that the adjectives for word “emotional” are psychic, inner and spiritual?
Now I do readings for people on the weekends. While I would never trade in my job as an entertainment editor for anything, being able to help so many is, to put it in no uncertain terms, what I feel I’m meant to do. I no longer feel like I don’t fit in and have an incredible support network around me who not only honour what I can do, but support me at every turn.
For those calling what I have “a gift”, it is a gift. However, it’s not for me, it’s for YOU. I am a messenger or a channel to help you connect to your loved ones or to move your life forward by reading your energy, predicting outcomes or even giving you a different perspective. I’m not any more special than anyone else, I just “see” things differently.
I’m aware that there will be people reading this feeling sceptical about my experiences and who will not understand or even believe in what it is I do. I know there will be people in my own family who had no idea this was even something I did so will no doubt have a lot of questions for me.
That’s why we have created the SEEN by Anita podcast, brought to you by The Latch. Born from the love and support of my incredible team (my wonderful managers, editors, producers and colleagues), I am now able to share what I can do with the world.
In this podcast, I will sit down with an interesting guest in each episode — some you may know, some you may not — and essentially “read” them. My intention is to not only bring you their story in a unique way but to inspire all people to live their truth.
I strongly believe we all have psychic abilities, you just need to know how to listen.
ABOUT SEEN BY ANITA
The Latch entertainment editor, Anita Anabel, has scored interviews with people from all over the world. Breaking news and exclusives are her forte, as well as getting her guests to open up in a very genuine and honest way. So how does she do it? Anita sees dead people. Well not really, but she is a psychic medium.
Anita is able to communicate with those who have crossed over. She can hear, feel, and see information coming from the “other side”. She is also predictive and inspires others to live their truths, all while learning about their story.
By combining her love of human interest and her unique interview skills, Seen by Anita is a fun, refreshing and very authentic take on talent interviews — with the added bonus of a passed over loved one or two.
In a very special pre-episode of SEEN by Anita, The Latch managing editor, Amanda Bardas, sits down with Anita to answer all of your burning questions about being a psychic medium. You can listen below.
Catch the SEEN by Anita Podcast on Spotify, Apple, iHeartRadio or your favourite podcast app. Streaming weekly from Wednesday, December 16.
If you or anyone you know is struggling and needs support, call Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800 or Lifeline on 13 11 14, both of which provide trained counsellors you can talk with 24/7. You can also speak with someone confidentially at Headspace by calling 1800 650 890 or chat online here.